A friend of mine is going through a break-up, and just reading some of the stuff he has posted on his facebook reminds me of the pain and heartache I felt when David first left....that sense of hopelessness and "it'll never be that good again." It breaks my heart...it made me realize how much of that I still have buried beneath the surface, but in recent weeks, I've began to feel alive for the first time since he left. I still miss him, I still love him, and I'd still give absolutely anything to wake up to his face, but unfortunately, that is life that has passed. I can't look ahead if I keep looking back, so I really have tried to let some of that heart-crushing pain go. I think I've been pretty successful.
I am dating, I am enjoying playtime with a fabulous man, and there's a promising new fella on the horizon who seems to be totally taken by me. I'm going to Sri Lanka in a few weeks, I got 2 walk-ins in my softball game yesterday, and I am just in love with life right now. I'm sure I'll have a moment in the near future, but for now, I'm not letting the pain from my past destroy my current and potential future happiness.
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